Things have been in a boring state of chaos. Nothing extravagant but still chaotic nonetheless. I feel like I’m barely keeping my head up over the water.
I have a baby with snot shooting out of her nose when she sneezes, a sick husband, and I’m starting to feel sick too. Not to mention, we thought we were pregnant AGAIN… yes, already. Still waiting so we’ll see. I highly doubt it though.
I stopped breastfeeding. I’m still so emotional though. It’s very not like me… but then again, I’m not the same ice-woman I used to be before I had Olivia. I was watching “Khloe & Kourtney: Take Miami” or whatever the title is and I started crying when I saw Kourtney’s sonogram and the little beating heart… but before that, I was fumed when I thought she was going to abort it even though I knew she ended up keeping it. I’m lame.
Then, I watched my recorded episode of “The Hills” and wanted to shoot all of them. Kristen is a publicity whore and she behaves how I think my dumbass may have at her age. She bugs…!!! Why did they make her the lead. It’s still a guilty pleasure of mine though.
School… drool!!! I have daily battles with my decision to go back to school. I want to quit almost every day. Then I think to myself… what a wonderful world!!! Ahahaha… just kidding… I’m sure you guys didn’t register that I had that song ringing in my head. But really, if not now. When? It’s hard enough with one kid, but imagine trying to juggle with more than one. NO WAY. I absolutely applaud mother’s that can do it all. Because that title does not come my way at all. I also have a greater respect for single mothers who perservere on their own. WOW.
Anyhow, I got into a verbal altercation in front of my mother inlaw at the Korean Market. This lady was so rude. She was gesturing for my mother inlaw to hurry the hell up because I was holding up the line… so ofcourse, I can’t stand for that ignorant crap. So I had to tell her off. I was just waiting for her to pull my hair or something so I could bull-doze her face with my fist. Heheh. Gosh in my head… it felt so good to punch her lights out. But all I could scream was “hey dummy, that’s real great karma you called your way!!” Geez, if only my mother inlaw and baby weren’t there.
Okay, gotta read. Take care all.